I'M AFRAID!

okay most of us are I guess.

BUT.

I'm REALLY afraid.

haha. past few days I keep looking at all the career guide and university brochures and stuff then keep thinking and thinking and thinking about what line/course to go into but until now still haven't make any decision. WHY? partly coz I scared decide already then results come out not good enough to qualify I will feel like a rotten egg lol. ok also partly coz I'm undecisive at times. maybe most of the times haha. but I also know that if I didn't look through at least, after the results come out it'll probably be a different mood. hmmm.. Like what Chicken said, WE SHALL PRAY...

Chicken ahh chicken please give some chance tomorrow during the mahjong game it'll be nice if you could leave me some money to buy dinner ok no need leave me money for transport coz I know at my house but still you know, erm.. ya lo. =D

today at work, I was trying to take out the hard plastic cover of someone's N82. The cover was really really hard to take out trust me even after I asked if she could help me take out she also couldn't. By the way the cover looks really solid but also it's very fragile and can break easily as the joints are very small. Anyway, I was trying to be as delicate as possible. After a few minutes or so she told me "it's ok if you break it it's very cheap only two dollars." Wa after she said this the very next moment I applied slightly more strength and the corner joint broke off I felt damn bad. Then she kept saying it's ok it's ok but I still felt bad. :(

that day I tried cycling past Bedok Camp and I realised after so many years of living near the camp actually how big it really is lol. The buildings inside also all look quite new reminded me of AHS actually. I cycled all the way through and ended up at East Coast Park and stopped for a few minutes to look at the sea and the people fishing at the jetty. I realise that whenever I look at the sea I'll feel relaxed. like as if the sea has some kind of calming effect. haha I've always held a great deal of respect for the sea.. like how it can be so gentle at times and yet so destructive at others. =D

oh well. let's all PRAY.